I had a query of "Crossroads of Time" rejected today. The editor was encouraging. She said that she liked it, then explained that first-century novels hadn't sold well for them. It would be an uphill battle with her sales team and store buyers to acquire another. She added that I was welcome to send her anything else I wrote.
Yeah, I could sit here and speculate on whether or not she was just good at saying "no thanks", but I'm not going to. Instead, I'm reminding myself that God has a plan, and He's opening and shutting doors according that plan.
Perhaps the Lord has another publishing company in mind for my story.
Lord, if that is Your plan, I submit to it.
Maybe He doesn't want that story published.
*Big hesitation (and I mean big)* Lord, if You can't use that story, I submit to Your plan. I don't want to try to publish any book without You.
What if...(told you I was a big what iffer). What if He doesn't want me to publish any novels? What if He gave me this talent just so I would start blogging? What if His plan for my writing is simply to touch one life through my blog?
*Cringing* Still cringing. Yes, Lord. Even then, I submit to You. Because I don't write for my own glory. I write for Yours.
I often imagine what it will be like at the judgement seat of Christ. No one will be pointing fingers in the crowd and shouting, "That's so and so! Oh my gosh, I can't believe it! Excuse me while I go get an autograph!" Nope. We'll look at famous people and shrug. No big deal. Not when you're standing in front of Jesus! So even if my foolish and wicked heart wants to be recognized as an "author"...maybe even a sucessfull, bestselling author (yes, I did just go there), it won't last. And I can't take my books with me. (I do like to think that God would keep copies of my stories, but then I suppose I could just write them again with my new and improved brain ;-)
Anyway, all that will matter on Judgement Day is this: did I do the work God gave me to do? I'm thinking about the parable of the talents. If God only wanted me to write this blog, and if I blog with gusto and give it everything I've got, then I will not be ashamed on that day. Perhaps I'll even make Jesus smile. And that's all that really matters.
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